Took an unexpected visit up to the big D this weekend to visit my Grammy. She fell on Christmas and broke her shoulder and just hasn't quite bounced back this time. She is 96 years old and a totally amazing and awesome, strong and independent woman. She seems to have taken a turn for the worse this week and I wanted to make sure I saw her. It was really hard to see her this way (she is basically just sleeping these days) but I was thankful for the time to sit and stroke her hands and back and tell her how much I love her. Growing old can be really hard sometimes and it seems almost cruel to have her be this way. She does look peaceful and I think even smiled a few times. I like to think she is just tired from her very long and full life and maybe ready to see her husband that she lost so long ago...but that surely doesn't make it any easier for those of us that love her here. She has been the matriarch of our family for so long and I don't even like to think of life without her around. I just pray for her comfort and peace right now but I surely would like her to wake up again too...
Grammy is really the only grandparent I have had for most of my life. Her husband (my mom's dad) died when she was a teenager. My dad's mom (my muzzy)died of cancer when I was really young and my dad's dad (my popsie) passed I think when I was in junior high? So for a long time it has just been the gramster! Anyway, I remember growing up in my prayers I would always say (I pray my grammy lives to see me get married....have my first child, etc) and I am beyond grateful that she has been around for these big moments in my life. Zachary actually came with us to visit her today (matt stayed back with Mark) and he was so sweet. He patted grammy, told her he loved her and gave us all some much needed laughs at times too with his funny and innocent comments and questions.
Awe! Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and your family, Lisa! Grammy is a beautiful lady, and how great that she has been able to share in so many special moments in your life!
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