I haven't been weight watchering for a year....but I finally found a good picture for before and after.
The company Christmas Party.
I am still not at goal. That side ticker has not changed very much in the last month. Same 5lbs I am struggling with (darn.you.holidays.) But old Lisa would have said, to heck with it, I give up! I am just meant to be bigger. And I have not done that yet. And I will not. Even if it takes me SIX months to lose these last few pounds, I will do it. I do not want to go back. On Thanksgiving morning, I got up and ran 4 miles. Matt got up and trumped me with like 6 or something ;-) A couple days later I ran my personal best of five miles. FIVE MILES! Who are these people?? I am changing! Every day is still a struggle. I could easily sit and eat a whole bowl of ice cream or queso (and on occasion still do so). But the difference is I am not defined by that one bad day. I can now shake it off and move forward. Get back on plan. Live this life differently.
I still do not LOVE exercise. But here is what I DO love. I can run after my boys (and they run. A lot.)and not be winded. That I could race them and probably win ;-) The fact that I can indulge some and it not be the end of the world. That I am stronger! To know that my body can physically do things I have never done before (like run FIVE miles!). That is an empowering feeling.
I posted a pic from our party this year on fb, and ya'll, was blown away by the comments. In a good way. I was truly touched by how many people commented, and really proud of myself for the work I have done for the last 7 months. I think I could finally see what others have been seeing. A transformation, as my mother has said!
And so I decided to look at a pic from last year's party. I still see a pretty woman, but a self conscious one who was uncomfortable in her own skin. Content with the status quo of her body and rationalizing that I was just made this way. But this year, I see a stronger and more confident woman. And that makes me smile. My ww leader has been asking me for a picture for her success stories but I have hesitated because I want to be at goal when I make the book. But I think I may have found my pictures. What do you think? :)
Every day is still a part of the journey. I would still like to lose more. But in the end, I am happy and proud of what all I have accomplished so far. I will never be a size 2-4-6...but I will be happy where I am. And not hating the body I am trapped in. Cause it's the only one we get and it is no one else's responsibility but my own to make sure to keep it ticking! :)
Anyway, not sure where I was going with all this and it is more of a post I should be writing at goal, but hey, I am happy today. Thank you so much to my hubby, my family, and my friends who are supporting me on this road to a healthier Lisa! I am appreciative of the time matt has given me to exercise, to my friends and family for cheering me on (and not judging when I do eat that bowl of queso!)! And just thank you for reading along!
