A year

I haven't been weight watchering for a year....but I finally found a good picture for before and after.

The company Christmas Party.

I am still not at goal.  That side ticker has not changed very much in the last month.  Same 5lbs I am struggling with (darn.you.holidays.) But old Lisa would have said, to heck with it, I give up!  I am just meant to be bigger.  And I have not done that yet.  And I will not.  Even if it takes me SIX months to lose these last few pounds, I will do it.  I do not want to go back.  On Thanksgiving morning, I got up and ran 4 miles.  Matt got up and trumped me with like 6 or something ;-)  A couple days later I ran my personal best of five miles.  FIVE MILES!  Who are these people??  I am changing!  Every day is still a struggle.  I could easily sit and eat a whole bowl of ice cream or queso (and on occasion still do so).  But the difference is I am not defined by that one bad day.  I can now shake it off and move forward.  Get back on plan.  Live this life differently.

I still do not LOVE exercise.  But here is what I DO love.  I can run after my boys (and they run.  A lot.)and not be winded.  That I could race them and probably win ;-) The fact that I can indulge some and it not be the end of the world.  That I am stronger!  To know that my body can physically do things I have never done before (like run FIVE miles!).  That is an empowering feeling. 

I posted a pic from our party this year on fb, and ya'll, was blown away by the comments.  In a good way.  I was truly touched by how many people commented, and really proud of myself for the work I have done for the last 7 months.  I think I could finally see what others have been seeing.  A transformation, as my mother has said!

And so I decided to look at a pic from last year's party.  I still see a pretty woman, but a self conscious one who was uncomfortable in her own skin.  Content with the status quo of her body and rationalizing that I was just made this way.  But this year, I see a stronger and more confident woman.  And that makes me smile.  My ww leader has been asking me for a picture for her success stories but I have hesitated because I want to be at goal when I make the book.  But I think I may have found my pictures.  What do you think? :)

 2010

2011

 
 
Every day is still a part of the journey.  I would still like to lose more.  But in the end, I am happy and proud of what all I have accomplished so far.  I will never be a size 2-4-6...but I will be happy where I am.  And not hating the body I am trapped in.  Cause it's the only one we get and it is no one else's responsibility but my own to make sure to keep it ticking! :)

Anyway, not sure where I was going with all this and it is more of a post I should be writing at goal, but hey, I am happy today.  Thank you so much to my hubby, my family, and my friends who are supporting me on this road to a healthier Lisa!  I am appreciative of the time matt has given me to exercise, to my friends and family for cheering me on (and not judging when I do eat that bowl of queso!)!  And just thank you for reading along!